(This post was originally published in my old site hancremona.wordpress.com titled ‘The big move, getting back on the road’ on 11th October 2015 and edited and re-posted on hancremona.com on 18th June 2018)

The past 7 months were a long and tough process of mega transformation. I let go of my career in business & marketing with a major importation and distribution company in Malta, I leased out my apartment, and began to break out of the comfort of the way I eat, love, and share. One thing led to another and I was suddenly exposed to a new group of beautiful people I thought I would have never connected with before. The summer of 2015 in Malta unfolded perfectly, acquiring new learnings along the way and in preparation for the big day!

It’s been a magnificent journey which led me to this day, heading back to Nepal indefinitely with one main objective: to live to impress myself and not others.

Just over a year ago in September 2014, I had a conversation with a Brazilian couple I met in Nepal, Chico and Camilla; we spoke about this very day! A dream I thought was impossible and is now a reality. Taking the decision to be true to myself and follow my heart was definitely an eye-opener from the talks we shared.

Last March, I finally found the courage to resign as marketing manager after 8 years at the same company, my family company. As a result, I had to face my own challenges and fears of taking this bold step. In addition to this, I was dealing with the emotions and reactions of others: surprise, shock, disbelief. There were so many expectations imposed on me; one of them being that I would continue in my mother’s footsteps in running my grandfather’s business. These expectations were challenged. And this was my time to move towards my own dreams, live my own ‘heroes journey’; so often missed by others because of the fear and expectations they succumb to. So many times I explained my story and the automatic responses include, “I regret not doing that.” “I wish I could do that one day.” This won’t be me. Not in this lifetime.

Nonetheless, I also received many positive reactions. It’s not all that frightening, and the support kept growing positively. It suddenly opened up new doors of opportunities and sparked authentic connections with others. Following the devastating earthquake in April I was more convinced about the decision I made. My love for the country and the people grew. Would I want to be there forever? Maybe, or maybe not, and only time and experiences will tell.

I’ve become even more grateful to my home country since I started traveling: the easy way of life and comfort, especially in Malta (we are great at complaining but know deep down we have it good!) It’s comforting to know that I’ve built a loving network of family and friends around me and that will support me along the way. I believe that’s important. When this was understood, it was clear that I’m not running away. It was clear that I want to follow a new path and I would recommend it to anyone who is facing the same emotions and desire to be something greater. Whether it’s backpacking in Asia or volunteering with people who are less privileged or to make a difference in environmental / wildlife conservation; whatever your muse, do it for yourself, you deserve it.

“live to impress myself and not others.”

Perhaps breaking out of the comfort is not for everyone. However, I do believe that everyone should put themselves out there at least once in their life; in a place that is far away from home, which is completely out of comfort zone and anything you know. Let the fear and excitement push you further to break down your boundaries, integrate with cultures, and grow emotionally and intelligently. This is something only travel can give you.

My loving mother sending me off

(This post was originally published in my old site hancremona.wordpress.com titled ‘The big move, getting back on the road’ on 11th October 2015 and edited and re-posted on hancremona.com on 18th June 2018)

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